Be Heard not Scene

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2004-12-25T07:34:51Z

kiss me kiss me kiss me...

your tongue's like poison

santa baby...

2004-12-21T06:16:33Z

so ive been in a really weird mood lately. quite nostalgic. wanting to be young again, and at the same time trying to grow up so quickly. i guess its being here back home... kansas city. in the house i basically grew up in, all the rooms, knowing which floor board creaks, which door is always jammed, which neighbors are guarenteed to be outside. i went out to the big tree today. smoked and watched the cars drive down the street and around the cul-de-sac.they didnt notice me 40 feet above the ground but i was there. reflecting on all thats happend on this street, in this house, in all these houses. i love it here. i love christmas. all my thoughts are blending into one. i really want to be naked with someone. not so much for sex but just that pure feeling of skin touching skin. warmth. love. comfort. and a kiss. just a kiss. warmth. love. comfort. i dont know where im going with this. like i said im in a weird mood tonight. conan is over so its time for me to retire for the evening. perhaps tomorrow. warmth.love.comfort

xoxo

oh yeah, updated my myspace for new pictures... http://profiles.myspace.com/users/7233919

g'nite lovelies

adoption is for historectomies

2004-12-19T06:54:38Z

I adopted a cute lil' gothy fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

Adopt Your Own Emo Kid!

fuck you, you think you're so pretty

2004-12-18T21:37:46Z

well im sitting here in the airport... bored as fuck man... i have another hur and a half to wait... bah humbug. but at least christmas is coming... i need a smoke...badddddd... i suppose i'll find a way...

do you have to let it linger?

passive agressive bullshit

2004-12-06T23:28:25Z

our school caught on fire...

the smell was beautiful. as was the smoke

im really confused about quite a few things, i would really like some clarity about now...

but never mind... convention is this thursday-saturday!!! andddddd.......next week... finals/christmas break... fuck yes

Every body wants to be hurt

2004-11-28T06:17:47Z

nail me to the wall

hit me. bite me. cut me.

hurt me.

fuck

tatooed everything

2004-11-27T05:03:06Z

im really worried about you kid... i really am... you can always talk to me... mkay?

my new medicine makes me throw up...

happy slaughtered poultry day!

2004-11-25T23:25:14Z

last night was fun... yeah... :)... definatly... :)

im attempting staying out of the chaos occuring in the kitchen... aaah... almost time to eat though

Tree goes up in t-minus 6 hours... hoorah

im taking food to everyone thats working tonight... they need a little thanksgiving....

TOFURKEY!

mmmmm yeah... i need to go out tonight... rick/eli/justin playing dominoes again! i think so! haha

from the time we intercepted, feels alot like suicide

2004-11-20T07:27:22Z

so yeah, definatly like him...

mmm village inn... thats what im talkin about

happy trees

next week is a lazy week... thanksgiving! food! family! shopping! drugs! hoorah!!!

nekrodoll @ 2004-11-18T22:40:00

2004-11-19T04:42:14Z

im drinking water with a spoon... nobody understands why...?

LithiumxxBarbie: i mean, hell you drink hot chocolate with a spoon... why not water?
OnENUt710: Haha
OnENUt710: You drink hot chochlate with a spoon because its to hot to sip it water isn't to hot to sip
Prettyvaccant: because it's pointless

goddamn... well i work tomorrow (friday) night... yay!

i got my school pictures back... i actually look somewhat decent in these... finally...

i love my family

fuck fuck fuck

2004-11-17T18:22:53Z

the drug dogs are coming to school... shit

hello justin....

I forget myself

2004-11-16T20:44:58Z

she finds herself liking someone. but though it couldnt work, its worth a shot. so nice. so cool. so hot. so at work.

my essay was "beautiful" according to miss montague.
i cant work all this week, im still looking for someone to cover me friday, maybe i'll just try to get out of what i had to do before.

christmas... soon... im putting up my tree on thanksgiving, nobody can stop me. im such a little girl.

all day yesterday i was attempting at sneezing, i really had to... and i couldnt. every wanna be sneeze would turn into a yawn. but finally... i sneezed. im sure you all would like to know about this. but i dont actually sneeze, i hold it in. my mom says my heads gonna blow up.

im supposed to go see the incredibles on friday with rick and eli and michelle, if anyone else wants to go... JUST TELL ME

im really sick of school. if i didnt actually have any dreams or aspirations, i just wouldnt go. but i have plans... oh yeah baby, i got plans. for you and me. we'll get that big house... sorry went off on a tangent

im doing peoples homework for their medications. haha. im getting good customers. mostly preppy jocky guys who are too lazy to do it themselves. i love pharmys...

i feel like going to village inn... yummmmmmmm. ham and cheese crepes.

somebody call me... i have nobody to talk to and nothing to do. bored out of my fucking mind 650-5442 or 548-9971

if christmas shopping ties you up... listen to this

All Mine

2004-11-08T16:05:31Z

bad news for anyone that liked my former hair length. not much is gone but im evening the front out with the back somewhat so it will grow out evenly. i actually think it looks quite good.

not much has happened the past few days that im able to discuss. but... ohhhhhhh... friday night, was supposed to go see Social D and Tiger Army, but instead... went to Kittie and Otep. i was a 'representative of moshpit records and pit magazine' so i got to pass out flyers. holy shit, what a GREAT show. i saw ashleigh there and we hung out. Jade bought me beer, hoorah. AWESOME show, and i got my tits signed by Kittie (except for the drummer) and Otep...

work on Saturday was hell, got a bad phone call and didnt feel much like working, i didnt have to, but i did anyways. Mike was nice. Rick gave me some pills, yippy.

i was told i look like fariuza balk
and somebody asked me if i was a suicide girl... giggidy

Louies is like a soap opera

fear memories are all that lie ahead

2004-11-05T15:18:51Z

lately i have been pouring all of my creativity in to a journal more tangible to me. so therefore my online journal will just consist of random bored shit and occasional other exposees of my mind. Me and candace are discussing people at work its funny...

im supposed to be writing about nuclear arsenal in Russia during the cold war. hooray for that... i dont want to be working... im gonna fail

i work tonight
tonight: social d/tiger army horrah
im getting off earlier so i can get there... hopefully candace will let me go

people are creepy, specifically one

i got bryans christmas present... goddamn im so nice
i need to start thinking of or making xmas presents for everybody else...

385-6202

2004-11-04T14:06:49Z

How Shoplifting Effects the Economy

Every five seconds in the United States, there is a shoplifter somewhere, stealing any amount of merchandise from one dollar to one thousand. I was recently caught and arrested for shoplifting. Since then I have realized the amount of loss that is suffered by the United States’ economy, not by me directly but every other shoplifter. Shoplifting accounts for 30% of all reported crime. Why is this? For some, it is greed. They want that new cd or t-shirt, and just don’t want to have to pay. Some do it for the thrill, just to see if they can get away. Others, on the other hand, steal to support themselves or steal for necessities that they just cant afford. Either way, shoplifting is wrong.
I learned this first hand when I found out just how much it affects businesses. One third of new businesses fail because of selfish people like myself shoplifting. This hurts the most. People work so hard to fulfill their dreams of owning their own store, but when shoplifters come into the picture, its bad news. Even corporate chains are strongly affected. Over $16 billion is lost each year from petty thefts alone.
Not only are businesses affected, but individual families as well. The average family has to pay over $300 a year to subsidize for what shoplifters take out of the economy.
There are, approximately, 300 million people in the United States. If each person stole just $5 worth of items, the amount would add up greatly. This is no way to mess with our already low economy.
A common misconception is that shoplifters are limited to being ‘troubled’ kids, or hardcore criminals. This is not true. 90% of the population has stolen or shoplifted at least once in their lives. Another misconception is that all shoplifters are adolescents. Granted, people under the age of 18 account for 50% of shoplifting, yet what about the other 50%? That’s right, people over the age of 18, who also tend to steal two-thirds MORE than adolescents.
I have recently acquired a job. People think that its alright to steal a small amount of our product. However cheap it is, it still affects the income of our business. Seeing first hand how even the smallest bit of shoplifting affects a store makes me realize that it is not something I want to put other people through, ever again.
Shoplifting is bad all around, however, some is worse than others. Local business depend fully on people BUYING their product, they have no other stores to depend on, and they have a severe amount less money than chain stores. Major corporate chains can afford one or two shoplifters, not that its right, but its not near as bad, they have lots of money. Besides, usually the items are returned, and without damage, the items can be put back on the shelves ready for resale.
There is no right reason to steal. No amount of thrill, greed or need can justify it. Not only will it hurt you when you get caught, but it will also affect your family, friends, and the store where you stole from. Save your thrills for somewhere else. Save up money, get a job, do whatever you have to do to get what you want, except take it.

Sarah Charlton
case #:

this is my bullshit essay for my court. i have no other way than to use this to get it up at school. if not i have a bench warrant for my arrest... hoorah

On candy striped legs,the spider man comes...

2004-10-21T17:55:05Z

haha im supposed to be doing the soft copy of my story. instead...

ok... whos background is better... MINE!!! or ... seans (lostmylifeonce) yeah sean, thats right, mine

THE SPIDER MAN IS HAVING ME FOR DINNER TONIGHT! me lindsey and sean are singing the cure... fun fun

i got a job at louies... its so fabulous. tres fun

rochester thanksgiving????

since i was born ive started to decay, now nothing ever goes my way

2004-10-12T20:56:14Z

people should really stay in their own business. granted, it is my fault that most of them know mine anyways, but still. im really getting physically sick and tired of people talking shit or using their status of being my friend to be able to joke. QUIT PRETENDING I DONT KNOW YOURE MAKING FUN OF ME. fucking bastards, all it does is make me lose respect for you, and it makes me realize im never going to have those bonafide friends that stay friends for ever. friends are phases. i wish it wasnt so, but nobody seems to want to be that commited to little old me. im too easy to let go apparently

Tesko Suicide

2004-10-10T07:08:23Z

'Show me, show me, show me
How you do that trick
The one that makes me scream,' she said
'The one that makes me laugh,' she said
And threw her arms around my neck
'Show me how you do it
And I promise you, I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you...'

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways
I had to make her glow
'Why are you so far away?' she said
'Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you,
That I'm in love with you?'

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water, you're just like a dream
Just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
I found myself alone
Alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven

i love you tom
i lost Sid last night, i was so scared, but we found him today... thank something
IM vERY TIRED
Renees back in town, horrah
bowling was fun
wills hair always smells good
i got another offer for a band *for keyboards* this kid taht works at guitar center heard me playing today, yay
kevin said "nigger" and a black guy heard it, oh kevin
german lessons started
was offered coke, passed it up, but also passed up a party... geez
mike is hawt

thoughts arise like butterflies

2004-10-07T04:34:39Z

Oh yeah... thats right

I LOVE PEARL JAM

newspaper stories take up alot of time

shes a femme fatale

2004-10-06T03:56:42Z

velocidolphin
pteradolphin
dolphasaurous rex

it glue in the dark

trip-so fun

RIP

2004-09-27T20:46:52Z

She was loved by no one. Those who thought they cared realized they didnt really when they found out who she was. Will she be missed. Only time will tell. Only the trees that she cried in will realize that she is gone. She is gone. Loss of cigarettes, coffee and red lips. Stained black eyelids and missing highheels. She is survived only by the hope of a better day and a chance at love. Please send fabricated nostalgic remarks in lieu of flowers. Make up your own story.

I taste when we kiss...

2004-09-20T00:19:30Z

old colorado cruising. sitting in acacia park. listening to 'the only true nigger'. recording that. shaving heads in the park. das boots. the pageant, against tomorows sky, eyes caught fire, laymen terms show. feeling lost... feeling loved. feeling like i need to sink into the floor in the middle of 32 bleu. losing the keys. walking all over downtown. finding them by the tree in acacia park. that was my friday.

yesterday, i babysat these awesome little kids.... so fuckin cool. total anti-bush, good music, funny shit kids. GBH CIRCLE JERKS>>> FUCKING AWESOME. ::le sigh:: drunk, didnt get much sleep.

today was such a beautiful day outside. the kind of day where you want to capture it and let it go on a really shitty day. the clouds were white and grey, the leaves were yellow and gold and green, the air felt so perfect. i could have walked the dog forever. theres a chance i might be going to Rochester... that is if my job in LA falls through... never thought id say this... but i hope it does. LA.. ROCHESTER... LA... ROCHESTER? should there be a comparison? no... but there is one.

Love Is Hell

2004-09-16T02:49:32Z

Jah...

2004-09-15T03:37:57Z

The Homicidal Nazi

homeless again... yes? no?

substitutes... yes, beautiful

one year... :-D :-D :-D :-D

i wish i was a nazi

the kiosk broke down

2004-09-13T19:51:40Z

i dont like school
shannon, dont drop out
its not worth it
nothings worth it
you only have a few months left
im sorry